Something Safer, Better, Later

Can you trust it to be better

Than your fantasies, when you must

Assume it will be worse? Can you?

Dreaming is indispensable,

Daydreaming indefensible,

But neither one is credible.

You can believe this is different

From the things you dreamed of being.

Can you call it better or worse?

I am watching sunlight again,

Watching it extend through morning,

Green as the grass it makes golden.

This is a good thing. Is it worse

Than lost dreams of security,

Hermitage, permanent leisure?

You have no idea how to want

More than you have experienced,

Except by amplification.

Would you believe it if I said

This cow pasture, hawk overhead,

Free of me, were enough for me

Now? Yes, I believe you would, now,

But would assume I dreamed, also, 

Something safer, better, later.